~takjas

I'm quite happy with my life right now. im almost 7 months pregnant and yes im young but im not just going to let people judging me get me down. i can do this, im not going to let myself resent it, i will not regret it, and i will let myself be happy. its been rough but at least from my whole ordeal i figured out who my true friends were and who was just to self absorbed. sadly i lost quite a few friends whats even sadder is when i tried to gain them back apologize and start fresh they wanted nothing to do with it and kept being bitter. some of them even became down right cruel. for instants about two weeks ago i was in the hospital and they though i might have my baby who would have been only 27 weeks... he wouldn't have had much chance of living i was in pain far away from home and scared for my baby's life only to find out a few of those people who had chosen to end our friendships had heard and laughed. a little bit on the cruel side as far as I'm concerned. and not only that one had stopped talking to me because i was spending to much time with my boyfriend, now i find that shes doing the exact same thing. but I'm lucky to have the friends that will stay with me and who will be there for me even if i make stupid choices. those are true friends who i will always value having. i hope i can teach my son the value of friends like that. its true sometimes the stares and whispers get to me and i want to just turn around and scream at them. but i just remind myself that they have no idea what I'm going through and they'll think what they want and thats fine with me. even though I'm not Christian i always loved this "he who is without sin cast the first stone.". my boyfriend and i are still together and working on plans for the baby and work. he has to go away to work so he can get the money we'll need to be able to afford everything. I'm staying with my mom and we're currently working on my sons nursery. it's starting to get warmer and I'm so happy I'll be having a spring baby. not to cold and not to hot. through pregnancy through cold and flu season wasn't fun in the least. it was worth it to get a good start. sadly i can't enjoy the sun as much as i wish i could. I'm on light bed rest. I'm not suppose to walk around a lot or lift things that are even a bit heavy. and i need to rest for two hours every morning and two hours every night. but i can still go out in the car and visit people. today i go for an ultra sound to make sure my amniotic fluid levels are okay and haven't dropped again. well thats about all that happened with my life lately

Takjas, a proud soon to be young mommy. who has wonderful friends.